lastxleviathan:

spellsinsugar:

Hoo boy, this is a big ask.

Well, yes, the gods are an extension of us and our faith and our souls and all of that but –

The gods sometimes fail to remember that we are human and have human needs.

When I devoted to the Morrigan, I took three days and three nights to meditate and ask myself what I wanted out of this devotion. Then I took three days and three nights of meditating with her to find out what she wanted from this devotion.

On her end, she wanted me to become a High Priestex and initiate and guide witches through the world. She wanted me to work with death and spirit healing and to work with energies around me. She wanted me to restore my Sight and reopen my third eye. She also wanted a lot of stuff that’s more personal, but the biggest one was that she wanted to be able to manifest through my body; she wanted me to channel her.

That’s a big thing, and if I hadn’t set boundaries and just said okay then she would have been able to do it whenever she wanted, which is REALLY HARD on a person.

So we set boundaries. She can channel through me when I feel it is easiest, she’s not allowed to bother me while I’m sleeping or working and she can’t isolate me from the other death deities that I’m in agreement with. In addition, I have her strength to help me out with a few other things, and I’ve made demands of my own that are very private but have been (mostly) fulfilled.

On my end, I have to channel her by writing at least once a moon cycle, and I am entirely devoted to her.

The gods do not always remember that we have human needs and human limitations and can and will use people until they’re very sick or dying. This is not them being explicitly cruel, but more of them failing to remember that we are different and we are weak in our own ways.

So, yes, it’s a big deal to make deals with the gods and you should definitely work it over before doing so.

If anyone else wants to add on to this, feel free!

This is the truth though. I had a lot of stuff I had to heal from and clear out before I could dedicate myself to any god; my mental health was in the toilet, I was confused and easily taken advantage of…Mannuk knew all of that, and he was patient with me. But it wasn’t easy for me to get to a place with him where I felt like I could trust him-godwork burned me badly in the past, and not in a productive or constructive way. That’s not any gods fault, it’s my own for not being more careful. But they are HUGE and we can be so small in comparison (ish), and it’s easy for us to get totally energetically and spiritually flattened if we’re not careful.

I liken humans to butterflies in some ways. The god that you land on or with has to use a careful touch, or they can crush us, sometimes beyond repair.

Mannuk helped me put myself back together again, like the butterfly doctor that gave a monarch a new wing. But not all gods are so gentle and kind and wise.